I was hurt and the only therapy I found was talking it off with my friends and family. I was basically jibbering and jabbering about him for months, until we all got tired of it. All I had to say about him at that time were negative things. I feel comfort when I see or hear them say something against him.
For one simple mistake he made, I made myself believe that this guy is nothing but another jerk, worst part, I made my friends and family believe that false thought. Well, maybe he's been a jerk for not trying to contact me and explain to me what really happened. He was literally gone for months so what would I think right? It's totally something a guilty person would do.
Then now, after 7 months, just when I was able to say I'm over him, he comes again. I've daydreamed about this scenario over and over again and I've always thought it's gonna be very easy to handle. But no, it's actually the other way around. The moment I saw his eyes, his unsure smile, and that very manly stride, it all came back just like that. I guess that's what they call spark, but this is a very complicated scenario to just rely on the "spark" factor. There are so much things to consider.
Like I've said, I've mentioned everything that's happened between us to my friends and family, I almost made them hate him for hurting me, if ever I wanted to give us a chance now, what would they think or say? This is all new to me and I'm very confused.
All he wants right now is a chance to be happy again, it's the same thing I've been hoping for since the thing between us ended, and I can never deny the fact that my summer this year has been the best summer I've had in my life. And it's all because of him.. And not only does he make me happy when he's around, he also changed me for the better. A better daughter, a better sister and a better student. He never holds me back and he was the main reason I smile whenever I wake up early in the morning.
I want to get back to those times when the phone rings and I automatically smile cos I knew it was you, I want to see you waiting for me outside the school, I want to hold your hand again. I just wanna go back to the old days, but I can't because I don't know what my friends would say.
In my case, I didn't keep my words soft and sweet, so now, I'm completely jaded. We'll see what happens.. After all, friends and family are there to stick around through anything, right?
In my case, I didn't keep my words soft and sweet, so now, I'm completely jaded. We'll see what happens.. After all, friends and family are there to stick around through anything, right?
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