It wasn't just a summer love after all

It's been nine months since I met you. Yes, it's pretty early to say that I've forgotten how it all happened although I would deny that if you ask me, just so I wouldn't sound like I love you more than I tell you cos really, I do. More than you know..

It was in the last quarter of February when I saw you sitting at my favorite bench at school, and I swear you were checking me out first. Okay, well you didn't deny that... So you added me on Facebook but I ignored you thrice because I didn't recognize you (I know, I know, I already said I'm sorry alright?), when I finally added you and found out you were actually him, I can't verbalize the excitement I felt at that moment.

You told me a story about how you saw me before Valentine's Day in front of the campus. "You were wearing a violet shirt" were your exact words and just right after you said it, Colbie Caillat's song 'You Got Me' suddenly played in my head.

We went out, you met my friends and showed what a true gentleman you are by taking me to the place where I was staying without even thinking twice on how far it is from your place (considering the fact that your mom used your car and you had to ride a cab)..

It's all pretty fresh to me. It was actually the highlight of my year. But why am I now talking in past tense? Well, because that is what it's supposed to be.. PAST. When I met you and got to know you, I had a hunch that things are gonna get messy in the end but I'm not really the type that would go after my hunch so I went on with it and took my chances with you.

What we had was gold, but pursuing each other now is not really the best way to get everything back. We had our own little time together and we made the best out of it. Us being together is the definition of the word "Fun" but fun is not all there is. We ended for a reason. And for months I've been trying to figure out what that reason might be but I was not successful. I'm sure you did the same.

Cliche as it is, but thank you for making me happy and for also making me cry (no bitterness intended).. Without the tears, I wouldn't have realized so many things about myself. I must admit though, until now I'm still hoping your name would suddenly pop up on my cellphone, I still keep wondering what it'd feel like if you ask me out again and that's exactly why I need some serious time away from you.

We tried being friends but the question is, do we even know how to be friends when we didn't start with friendship at all? So this is my goodbye note to you (although you're not gonna be able to read this).. But don't worry, I still consider this a good year because of you, and I'm still glad you've been a part of it.

It wasn't just a summer love after all
                   ...but a memory that I shall cherish in this lifetime.