Only God knows if he's the one, but I'm having fun

So I've never been over him after all (you've seen the emotional posts, you be the judge).. For a week now, I just can't take him off my brain. But that doesn't mean I can't do anything about it. So I guess now's the time to do what I gotta do.. The "out of sight, out of mind" thing didn't work so maybe I'll have to come up with some more moving on strategy (or perhaps I can Google?)..

Tonight, I wanna write about this really awesome man who came into my life after you-know-who. I really got to give him some credit. The man who helped me get through the "loneliest" stage of a break up (well it's not a break up but that's how my friends called it).. Anyway, he lives in Manhattan, exactly 8,506 miles from where I am and we really have a huge time difference.

I added him on Facebook about a few months ago. I don't just add people by the way, and although I didn't know him at that time, I just really felt like doing so. A few months after that, he started using my photo as his profile picture which surprised me cos nobody has really done that, considering that we've never really talked so much. So yeah, that little act caught my attention. And since I'm on the internet everyday, I stalked him and found his little conversations with his friends about me.

That's when I started talking to him, almost everyday actually.. Constant chatting, comments here and there, sweet posts and stuff.. I've grown fond of him in a short period of time and one day, I just found myself waiting there, 1:00 am, in front of my laptop, waiting for his name to come up.

He's not just like any other guys (okay, you've probably heard that a million times, but it's true!) He's the type that writes me a message just because, posts sweet songs on my wall (his song for me is Bruno Mars' Just the way you are, by the way! I mean, what kind of girl wouldn't like that??) He even wrote me a song! (sigh...) He did all the sweetest things that I wish a guy would do for me. He even goes online on his lunch breaks just to talk to me..

You know how Bella described Jacob when they started hanging out? She described him as her "own personal sun". That's what he was to me.. "It's like the huge hole that has been punched through my chest was gone" (Bella's words not mine..) He made me forget my problems and helped me get through those hectic writing days of my first semester in college.. Whenever I can't sleep, he's always there talking to me..

But things have been complicated with us (maybe something's wrong with me? I can't figure out why it happens all the time).. He sent me a message saying he thinks we're better off as friends and that we both needed time to heal from the past heartbreaks we've had, especially him cos he's been in a long-term relationship about a year ago.. And not to mention the distance between us, he loves his job and his mom's there, his life's basically in New York now and I don't think that no one, not even me, could ever make him come and stay here in the Philippines again.

We've never talked since his last message and now I just learned that he is here. I have no idea if he'd still cook that pasta he promised he would make for me, I'm not sure if he wants to see me or not. I'm not sure about what I want either... Like I always say, come what may.. (I didn't mean for that to rhyme..)

So here's the message he sent me on October 6 at exactly 8pm (Facebook time):

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I sit all alone with my thoughts
Listening to Bruno Mars songs
Checking a blank screen, when you’ll be coming on
Waiting to be online so we could talk for awhile
Maybe at the time we normally do
Coz with just one “hey” I can feel your warmth

Refrain:
Minutes seems like hours
Hours seems like days
As slowly it’s killing me
Oh can you hear me? I’m trying to whisper
Your name across the distance
But it doesn’t relieve the pain
That I still can’t touch you Girl.

Chorus:
Ohh I hate this long distance
Don’t know what to do
I’m so into you baby
And I can’t help the way I feel
Everytime I think of you, I can’t turn around nor move no
Don’t know what to believe, my heart and mind says
You are what I never knew I always wanted girl

I met her in a strange place
I never thought I could love a girl like her
No, its not admiration or wild attraction
She’s amazing like the stars above beautiful
Her face, her smile, her love awaken my soul
Now look what you have done girl
(repeat refrain- chorus)

Please believe everything I say to you
I want you to see how beautiful you are to me
And how can I let go, I can’t help it
Need to see you, feel you, love you
But you’re hundred miles away
So I just want to say…


hey, can you give title to this song? i didn't sleep the whole night so id just wrote a song for you..:)